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  • ‘The first free black man I’d ever seen’

    ‘The first free black man I’d ever seen’

    Patricia Whitehorne

    BBC News

    Sports Illustrated/Getty Images Arthur Ashe, in a blue tracksuit top, smiles as he holds up the Wimbledon trophy after winning the men's final on 5 July 1975.Sports Illustrated/Getty Images

    The Wimbledon title was the third of Arthur Ashe’s Grand Slam crowns

    Fifty years ago Arthur Ashe pulled off an amazing feat, upsetting the odds and becoming the first black man to win the Wimbledon Men’s final when he beat fellow American Jimmy Connors – but it was not something he wanted to define his life.

    His fight to break down barriers around racial discrimination was closer to his heart – and apartheid South Africa became one of his battle grounds.

    “I don’t want to be remembered in the final analysis for having won Wimbledon… I take applause for having done it, but it’s not the most important thing in my life – not even close,” he said in a BBC interview a year before his death in 1993.

    Nonetheless his Centre Court victory on 5 July 1975 was hailed as one of those spine-tingling sporting moments that stopped everyone in their tracks, whether a tennis fan or not, and it is being commemorated with a special display at the Wimbledon museum.

    Ashe was already in his 30s, tall, serene and with a quiet and even-tempered demeanour. Connors, 10 years younger and the defending champion, was an aggressive player and often described as “brattish”.

    Ashe’s achievements and the skills and courage he displayed on the court were certainly matched by his actions off it.

    Sports Illustrated/Getty Images Jimmy Connors and Arther Ashe - both in tennis whites - shake hands over the net after Ashe's victory in the Wimbledon final of 5 July 2025. The clapping crowd can be seen behind themSports Illustrated/Getty Images

    Ashe’s victory at Wimbledon was an iconic moment in sport

    In the early 1970s, South Africa repeatedly refused to issue a visa for him to travel to the country alongside other US players.

    The white-minority government there had legalised an extreme system of racial segregation, known as apartheid – or apartness – in 1948.

    The authorities said the decision to bar him was based on his “general antagonism” and outspoken remarks about South Africa.

    However, in 1973, the government relented and granted Ashe a visa to play in the South African Open, which was one of the top tournaments in the world at the time.

    It was Ashe’s first visit to South Africa, and although he stipulated he would only play on condition that the stadium be open to both black and white spectators, it sparked anger among anti-apartheid activists in the US and strong opposition from sections of the black community in South Africa.

    British journalist and tennis historian Richard Evans, who became a life-long friend of Ashe, was a member of the press corps on that South Africa tour.

    He says that Ashe was “painfully aware” of the criticism and the accusation that he was in some way giving legitimacy to the South African government – but he was determined to see for himself how people lived there.

    “He felt that he was always being asked about South Africa, but he’d never been. He said: ‘How can I comment on a place I don’t know? I need to see it and make a judgment. And until I go, I can’t do that.’”

    Evans recalls that during the tour, the South African writer and poet Don Mattera had organised for Ashe to meet a group of black journalists, but the atmosphere was tense and hostile.

    “As I passed someone,” Evans told the BBC, “I heard someone say: ‘Uncle Tom’” – a slur used to disparage a black person considered servile towards white people.

    “And then one or two very vociferous journalists stood up and said: ‘Arthur, go home. We don’t want you here. You’re just making it easier for the government to be able to show that they allow someone like you in.’”

    Gerry Cranham / Offside Arthur Ashe in red shirt and navy blue tracksuit bottoms serves as a crowd of South African children in tennis whites watch him from behind a tennis court fence in Soweto - November 1973.Gerry Cranham / Offside

    Arthur Ashe went to Soweto in November 1973 to hold tennis clinics for children in the township

    But not all black South Africans were so vehemently opposed to Ashe’s presence in the country.

    The South African author and academic Mark Mathabane grew up in the Alexandra township – popularly known as Alex – in the north of Johannesburg. Such townships were set up under apartheid on the outskirts of cities for non-white people to live.

    He first became aware of Ashe as a boy while accompanying his grandmother to her gardening job at a British family’s mansion in a whites-only suburb.

    The lady of the house gifted him a September 1968 edition of Life magazine from her collection, and there, on the front cover, was a bespectacled Arthur Ashe at the net.

    Mathabane was mesmerised by the image and its cover line “The Icy Elegance of Arthur Ashe” – and he set out to emulate him.

    When Ashe went on the 1973 tour, Mathabane had only one mission – to meet Ashe, or at least get close to him.

    The opportunity came when Ashe took time off from competing to hold a tennis clinic in Soweto, a southern Johannesburg township.

    The 13-year-old Mathabane made the train journey to get there and join scores of other black – and mostly young – people who had turned out to see the tennis star, who they had given the nickname “Sipho”.

    “He may have been honorary white to white people, but to us black people he was Sipho. It’s a Zulu word for gift,” Mathabane, now aged 64, told the BBC.

    “You know, a gift from God, from the ancestors, meaning that this is very priceless, take care of it. Sipho is here, Sipho from America is here.”

    Gerry Cranham / Offside Young girls, some in in tennis whites and sunglasses, pose with racquets as boys in suits and hats walk by. They are part of crowd gathered in Soweto to see Arthur Ashe in November 1973.Gerry Cranham / Offside
    Gerry Cranham / Offside Arthur Ashe in red shirt and navy blue tracksuit bottom and white tennis shoes, holds three white tennis balls in one hand and a grey tennis racquet in the other as he talks to children in front of him during a tennis clinic in Soweto. Others are watching from behind a tennis court fence - November 1973. Gerry Cranham / Offside

    Excited crowds descended on the tennis clinic to catch a glimpse of the superstar tennis player…

    By 1973 Arthur Ashe had already won the US Open and Australian Open…

    The excitement generated at the Soweto clinic was not just contained to that township but had spread across the country, he said.

    From rural reservations to shebeens or speakeasies (bars) – wherever black people gathered, they were talking about Ashe’s visit.

    “For me, he was literally the first free black man I’d ever seen,” said Mathabane.

    After the 1973 tour, Ashe went back to South Africa a few more times. In early 1976 he helped to establish the Arthur Ashe Soweto Tennis Centre (AASTC) for budding players in the township.

    But not long after it opened, the centre was vandalised in the student-led uprisings against the apartheid regime that broke out in June of that year.

    It remained neglected and in disrepair for several years before undergoing a major refurbishment in 2007, and was reopened by Ashe’s widow Jeanne Moutoussamy-Ashe.

    The complex now has 16 courts, and hosts a library and skills development centre.

    AFP/Getty Images US tennis player Serena Williams (left) in a yellow top and white cap flanked by her sister Venus in a white  top and cap pose with children in red caps and white T-shirts, some holding rackets after a two-hour tennis clinic at the Arthur Ashe Soweto Tennis Centre - November 2012.AFP/Getty Images

    The Arthur Ashe Soweto Tennis Centre has big ambitions – and Serena and Venus Williams have held tennis clinics there

    The ambition is to produce a tennis star and Grand Slam champion from the township – and legends such as Serena and Venus Williams have since run clinics there.

    For Mothobi Seseli and Masodi Xaba, who were once both South African national junior champions and now sit on the AASTC board, the centre goes beyond tennis.

    They feel that fundamentally it is about instilling a work ethic that embraces a range of life skills and self-belief.

    “We’re building young leaders,” Ms Xaba, a successful businesswoman, told the BBC.

    Mr Seseli, an entrepreneur born and raised in Soweto, agrees that this would be Ashe’s vision too: “When I think about what his legacy is, it is believing that we can, at the smallest of scales, move the dial in very big ways.”

    Ashe was initially inclined to challenge apartheid through conversations and participation, believing that by being visible and winning matches in the country he could undermine the very foundation of the regime.

    But his experience within South Africa, and international pressure from the anti-apartheid movement, persuaded him that isolation rather than engagement would be the most effective way to bring about change in South Africa.

    He became a powerful advocate and supporter of an international sporting boycott of South Africa, speaking before the United Nations and the US Congress.

    In 1983, at a joint press conference set up by the Organisation of African Unity (OAU) and UN, he spoke about the aims of the Artists and Athletes Against Apartheid, which he had just co-founded with the American singer Harry Belafonte.

    Getty Images US tennis player Arthur Ashe (centre in dark blue shirt, aviator sunglasses and holding a stick) links arms with others, including US singer Harry Belafonte (in white with a 'USA for Africa' sweatshirt march during a demonstration against US support of apartheid in South Africa outside the UN in New York - August 1985.Getty Images

    Arthur Ashe and US singer Harry Belafonte (R), seen here during an anti-apartheid protest outside the UN in New York, founded Artists and Athletes Against Apartheid

    The organisation lobbied for sanctions against the South African government, and at its height had more than 500 members.

    Ashe joined many protests and rallies, and when he was arrested outside the South African embassy in Washington DC in 1985, it drew more international attention to the cause and helped to amplify global condemnation of the South African regime.

    He was the captain of the US Davis Cup team at the time, and always felt that the arrest cost him his job.

    Ashe used his platform to confront social injustice wherever he saw it, not just in Africa and South Africa, but also in the US and Haiti.

    He was also an educator on many issues, and specifically HIV/Aids, which he succumbed to, after contracting the disease from a blood transfusion during heart surgery in the early 1980s.

    But he had a particular affinity with South Africa’s black population living under a repressive regime.

    He said that he identified with them because of his upbringing in racially segregated Richmond in the US state of Virginia.

    No wonder then that Ashe was one of the key figures that South African anti-apartheid hero Nelson Mandela was keen to meet on a trip to New York, inviting him to a historic townhall gathering in 1990 shortly after his release from 27 years in prison.

    The pair met on a few occasions, however Ashe did not live to see Mandela become president of South Africa following the 1994 election, which brought in democratic rule and the dismantling of apartheid.

    But like Ashe, Mandela was able to use sport to push for change – by helping unify South Africa – notably during the 1995 Rugby World Cup when he famously wore the Springbok jersey, once a hated symbol of apartheid.

    To celebrate this year’s anniversary of Ashe’s victory, the Wimbledon Championships have an installation in the International Tennis Centre tunnel and a new museum display about him. They are also taking a trailblazer workshop on the road to mark his achievement.

    His Wimbledon title was the third of his Grand Slam crowns, having previously won the US and Australian Opens.

    But to many people like Mathabane – who in 1978 became the first black South African to earn a tennis scholarship to a US university – Arthur Ashe’s legacy was his activism, not his tennis.

    “He was literally helping to liberate my mind from those mental chains of self-doubt, of believing the big lie about your inferiority and the fact that you’re doomed to repeat the work of your parents as a drudge,” he said.

    “So that was the magic – because he was showing me possibilities.”

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  • Ready for Euro 2025? Take our quiz

    Ready for Euro 2025? Take our quiz

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    All eyes are on stunning Switzerland, as 16 teams battle it out to win Euro 2025, including Wales and defending champions England.

    But how much do you know about the tournament? Take our quiz and limber up for the football event of the summer.

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  • Tivoli Gardens’ CEO on how Denmark’s most renowned theme park has stayed tech-free and relevant for 182 years 

    Tivoli Gardens’ CEO on how Denmark’s most renowned theme park has stayed tech-free and relevant for 182 years 

    When Tivoli Gardens opened its gates in central Copenhagen 182 years ago, one of the first people through the turnstiles was Hans Christian Andersen. Since then, this compact amusement park squeezed between the Central Station and City Hall has become more than just Denmark’s most popular visitor attraction, it’s a cultural landmark and a location for national celebration that holds a quasi-spiritual place in the heart of the Danes. 

    More the merrier: A Moorish palace in the Tivoli Gardens, circa 1965 (Image: Getty Images)

    The park blends beer garden aesthetic with highbrow culture, live music, theatre, modern thrill rides and old-fashioned fairground stalls, all of which combine with its world-famous lighting to create a fairytale setting. 

    Tivoli’s history is a crucial element of its appeal – but as CEO Susanne Mørch Koch knows all too well, to compete in 2025’s attention economy you can’t coast on legacy alone. Her stint as leader began with a baptism of fire. She took over in August 2020 amid the Covid crisis, as a result of which the park lost millions of kroner in revenue. But after a rollercoaster start, Tivoli posted a record for visitor numbers and turnover in 2024.

    Monocle meets Koch to find out more about how she has shepherded this cherished Danish brand from catastrophe to triumph, and about her plans for the future.

    Tivoli Gardens CEO, Susanne Mørch Koch

    Tivoli seems to hold a special place in Danish hearts. What is its appeal?
    Many of us carry childhood memories from Tivoli. My family didn’t have a lot of money when I was young, and looking back I now realise that my parents worked so hard and we didn’t have a lot of spare time together. But we would visit Tivoli every summer as a family, and it was something that I looked forward to for the whole week running up to it. I couldn’t sleep the night before. And that’s still true for kids today. My favourite ride was Galejen – just little boats running round in a circle but it’s quite a legacy ride today and always busy. It even has a special smell and feel. Now, I ride the old wooden rollercoaster most often.

    Who is your competition? Are you vying with computer games, streaming services and social media to capture the imagination of children?
    No, not really, because we are so different from that world. There has been pressure to gamify the park with apps – we had a suggestion for something a bit like Pokémon Go – but we have deliberately not done that. We are selling quality time and screens would get in the way of that. Of course, no one wants to stand in line and be bored, but we’re not afraid of people queuing a little: it’s where you can ground yourself, reflect on what you’ve just experienced and build anticipation. We see it as a benefit. Where apps can improve a visit, we use them – restaurant bookings, for instance – but we don’t want technology to be part of the show. And you don’t have to book a table, there’s always room for a little spontaneity. 

    Tivoli has iconic gates that seem to draw people in – how important is this exterior image? 
    The main entrance is crucial. It’s a magical place where we welcome and say goodbye to our guests, so there’s a lot of footfall. Throughout Tivoli there is an intentionality behind every detail. Rather than having things that shout for attention, it’s an accumulation of all the little things, such as the way that we use lighting, the planting and the sentiment of the people who work here.

    Gates of paradise: People queuing at the entrance to the Tivoli Gardens, circa 1965 (Image: Getty Images)

    How do you balance the history of Tivoli with a need to innovate? 
    When I started, people warned me that I risked provoking outrage by changing things. But I’m yet to experience that. Tivoli has always moved forward, it has never shied away from change. If it had done so, it would risk becoming a postcard version of itself – what use is a theme park with no thrill? From the start, my guideline has been that it has to make sense to the people who live just outside our walls. It’s not a typical amusement park that could be anywhere – with live entertainment and good food, we cater to more than tourists and day trippers. 

    What does the future hold for Tivoli? 
    There is still scope to grow visitor numbers, particularly in the shoulder seasons, spring and autumn. We are choosing to expand the Halloween season as the Norwegians have an earlier autumn vacation and we want to attract them. But there’s something huge ahead of next summer – we are redeveloping our street-like layout, with new rides and scenography. The budget is somewhere between DKK100-200 million (€13.4-26.8m) and it’ll feel like a real refresh. 

    Tivoli Gardens
    Founded 1843

    Open: Apr-Sept, Oct, mid-Nov-Early Jan

    Location: Central Copenhagen

    Total employees: high season 2,200+, low season 700-800

    Turnover (2024): DKK1.32bn (€177m)

    Visitors (2024): 4.25 million, of which 35 per cent are tourists

    Ownership: Tivoli is listed on the Danish stock market but is majority owned by the Augustinus Fonden

    Sustainability: Net zero by the end of 2025

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  • Fresh leak reveals critical info about Google’s Pixel Watch 4

    Fresh leak reveals critical info about Google’s Pixel Watch 4

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    The smartwatch market is not nearly as crowded as the smartphone market, but that doesn’t mean that competition isn’t just as fierce. Between Apple and Samsung, Google is trying to find its own audience in the United States.

    If you’re a Google fan who prefers the company’s Pixel products, a fresh leak is spilling all the colors of the upcoming Pixel Watch 4. That includes the case colors and the band options that customers will be able to choose from once Google’s smartwatch goes on sale.

    According to reliable tipster @MysteryLupin, the Wi-Fi and LTE versions of Pixel Watch 4 will be available in two sizes: 41mm and 45mm. Both will come in four case/band colors, which we have listed below:

    • Black/Obsidian
    • Gold/Lemon
    • Moonstone Silver/Iris
    • Silver/Porcelain

    Besides those, Google will also launch a slew of Pixel Watch 4 bands, each aimed at different audiences. Here are all the options that will probably be available at launch:Bands

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    • Active Sport Band: Indigo, Lemongrass, Moonstone, Peony
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    • Metal Mesh Band: Matte Black, Polished Silver
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    • Lemongrass/Frost
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    • Obsidian/Hazel
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    It’s unclear if some these colors will only be available with the larger or smaller size Pixel Watch 4, like it happened with the previous model. In any case, if you’re considering the Pixel Watch 4, you’ll plenty of hues to choose from this year.

    Google Pixel Watch 4 render | Image credit: @OnLeaks via 91Mobiles

    One other piece of information revealed by the leaker is the fact that the bands will be available in sizes 1 to 5, but it remains to be seen if this is available for both Pixel Watch 4 sizes.

    While plenty information about Pixel 10 leaked, there are very few details about Google’s upcoming smartwatch. The only major Pixel Watch 4 leak dates from April and comes in the form of a set of renders made by @OnLeaks.

    Based on these renders, there won’t be too many case design changes between the current-gen Pixel Watch and the next model. The only changes that we’re aware of are wireless charging support and two mysterious buttons positioned to the left and right of the speaker.

    No release timeframe for the Pixel Watch 4 has leaked yet, but it’s worth mentioning that Google introduced the Pixel Watch 3 and August, so an announcement might be just one month away.

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  • Marcelo Bacci -  Executive Vice-president – Finance and Investor Relations

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    For the last 10 years, he was the Executive Vice-president of Finance and Investor Relations at Suzano S.A., where he had an outstanding performance. 

    He also served as Chairman and member of the Board of Directors of companies in the Suzano Group and other companies in the Brazilian market, such as Energisa S.A. and BRF S.A. 

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  • A Woman on Vacay With Her Boyfriend

    A Woman on Vacay With Her Boyfriend

    Photo-Illustration: Marylu Herrera

    In this week’s story, a woman tests her new relationship at an Airbnb on the beach: 32, in a relationship, Connecticut.

    DAY ONE

    7:20 a.m. I wake up early to the sound of waves. This Airbnb somewhere on a beach in Connecticut is exactly what I need: water views, space, light, zero city chaos. H is still sleeping — or maybe pretending to be asleep. I’m not sure. It’s been only three months together, and this is our first trip. It should be quite telling.

    10:30 a.m. He’s still sleeping. Is that weird? We’re in our early 30s. It seems weird to sleep this late, but maybe I’m overthinking; I do that. I peek into the bedroom. He’s snoozing peacefully. I watch him, both wondering how I got so lucky and whether or not I trust him. He hasn’t done anything to make me not trust him, but I don’t trust men in general. My ex was a liar; the one before him was a cheater. I’m not, like, wounded wounded, but I’m a little fucked up when it comes to trusting men. H knows this about me, to some extent, but not fully. I don’t want to sound unstable to him!

    12 p.m. H finds me reading on the beach — our own private beach that comes with this rental … gorgeous! He’s showered and dressed and suggests we go into town for breakfast (for him) and lunch (for me). I have to bite my tongue not to ask him when he woke up, why didn’t he come say “hello,” does he always sleep late like a teenager? Instead, I’m like, “Yup. Let’s do it!”

    3 p.m. We do the cute couple-y thing: grab beach food from a crab shack, hold hands while shopping a bit, go look at the marina and kiss. H is a very easygoing guy. He’s funny, cute, pretty good in bed. We met online, and I was shocked how normal he was. It was enough to keep me interested, although I’m not sure our connection will grow deeper than it is now. I’m just not sure if he’s inherently shy and reserved or emotionally unavailable.

    5 p.m. Back at the rental, we have sex. It feels more mandatory than passionate. H is a good lover. He always goes down on me. He’s got a strong dick that is always up for a good time. I usually come when we fuck, just not today. But I pretend that I do.

    8 p.m. We’re grilling dinner and drinking cold white wine. Again, it’s all idyllic, but I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. H knows none of this as I just smile and appear to be soaking in the moment. Then we get into bed to watch The Bear and go to sleep.

    DAY TWO

    10 a.m. He is still sleeping! Weird but okay!

    11 a.m. I take some selfies and pretty pictures of our view. I’m going to post on Instagram but not sure if I should tag H. We haven’t gone Insta official yet. He’s barely on social media to begin with (he works at an elite private school, so his privacy is important to him). I work for my family business, importing gourmet ingredients from other countries, so I have no reason to be private or anxious about anything work-wise. He’s off for the summer, and I’m taking a few personal days for this trip.

    12 p.m. I post and don’t tag him. Just as I do this, he arises. I call him Mr. Sleepyhead and he laughs, but I detect some defensiveness.

    1:35 p.m. Same routine as yesterday. We’re in town grabbing breakfast-lunch. We’re sitting at an outdoor table talking about this area, and I stupidly say something like, “Maybe we’ll have a beach house around here someday?” I have no idea how that came out of my mouth, and he doesn’t flinch, but I regret it immediately. His response was just a little laugh. Fuck!

    4:40 p.m. Sitting in our backyard by the beach, I show him the photos I posted on Insta. He’s like, “Why didn’t you tag me?” Call me insecure, but it literally fills my heart with joy when he says that. I play it cool and tell him maybe I’ll tag him next time. But the point is now I’m so horny for him that I lead him back to the house and we fuck all over the place: first the couch, then bedroom that we’re not sleeping in, and then our room. It’s, like, one long fuck session in three different scenes. In the end, I have this crazy-loud orgasm, and so does he. We’re both kind of laughing at ourselves after that. It’s the most wild our sex has ever been.

    6 p.m. While he grills and I sip wine, I feel at ease, at least for now.

    8 p.m. We’re showered, in bed, and watching another episode of The Bear.

    DAY THREE

    9:45 a.m. I’m back at the beach, reading with my coffee. H is the one who paid for this Airbnb, so I want to treat him to something nice today. I’m looking for good spas in the area and call a few to see what’s available. I book something for him later in the day. Hope he likes it!

    11:45 a.m. He’s still sleeping, but I crawl back into bed with him. This wakes him a little and we start fooling around. He has horrific morning breath, but I try to work with it. My breath might not be much better after all the coffee I’ve had. Whatever. We start to fuck and something really crazy happens: He farts. We both try to play it off for a second, but then we both start laughing. He’s like, “Well, we got our first fart over with.” What is wrong with me that I find that line superromantic? We finish up fucking after that but are both too giggly to actually come.

    2 p.m. I’m dropping H off at the spa place, which is in a cute nearby town. He’s super-excited. I’m glad I did this for him. As he walks in, he turns around and says, “I don’t deserve you.” He says this lovingly, but me being me, I start to spiral over it. Were they just nice, throwaway words, or was he saying that he’s a piece of shit and literally doesn’t deserve me? Was it a warning of sorts? This is how my dating brain works! It’s awful.

    4 p.m. After his massage, we get drinks in town. He’s all blissed out and very quiet. I ask if anything is wrong, and he says he’s just very, very relaxed. He’s all smiley, but of course I’m nervous.

    6:40 p.m. It’s our last dinner here. He’s grilling shrimp and corn while I kind of start to pack us up. Back to the city tomorrow. I call my sister on speakerphone while I fold my clothes and get our stuff out of the dryer. He can’t hear us talking, but I’m still whispering. She asks if we got “so much closer” on this trip. The answer is “yes and no.” It’s good to know we’re compatible while traveling; he never annoyed me. We have the same interests (reading) and pace when at the beach. We both like to get into bed early. But do I know him any better than before? Not really. Our conversations have been mainly superficial: work goals, financial goals, funny stories from high school and college, analyzing episodes of The Bear, etc. My sister thinks it all sounds “easy,” which is “awesome,” and I know she’s right and yet my head spins.

    10 p.m. In bed, we have sex slowly and intimately. He’s the one initiating it like this. It feels like maybe this is his way of showing-not-telling me we’re closer than ever and that this is only the beginning. I hope so.

    DAY FOUR

    8:30 a.m. Coffee on the beach. I will have to wake him soon since we’re supposed to check out by 10 a.m.

    9:45 a.m. I wake him and he tries to pull me into bed to fool around, but we really have to check out. I tell him he has just enough time to shower. We already packed everything up last night.

    11 a.m. He’s still getting ready to leave, while I’m sitting on the front porch kind of brooding. I am a real stickler for time, and it feels disrespectful to be late. There could be a housekeeper waiting to come in and turn things over for the next guests. This is starting to feed rude — to me, to the owners, etc. I also really hate tardiness in general.

    11:30 a.m. By the time he walks out the front door, I’m fuming, but I try really hard to play it cool. I’m physically swallowing my anger. We get in the car, put on a podcast, and start driving back to the city.

    3:15 p.m. We hit some bad traffic, so it was a long drive home and somewhat awkward because I never really calmed down about him taking so long this morning — and because he’s one of those guys who cannot handle traffic. He’s yelling at no one for a good hour. It should have taken just under two hours to drive home and instead took almost four. Good thing we had so many episodes of SmartLess to catch up on; I love this podcast. H drops me off first as it’s his car. We kiss on the lips good-bye — no tongue — and I go inside, hoping my roommates aren’t home. I need some space!

    6 p.m. Happily alone at home for the rest of the day. I’m enjoying the silence. I’m podcasted out. Basically staring at a wall, if I’m being honest.

    10 p.m. Neither H or I text each other the rest of the day. I think we’re both just happy to be home and it’s not a big deal.

    DAY FIVE

    9 a.m. I’m actually happy to walk into my office today. I get to see my family, which feels great. I’m happy to be productive. I really love my work.

    12:30 p.m. Right around now, while sitting at my desk, I start thinking that H isn’t for me. I just think it’s weird that we just spent four days together and I don’t feel any more connected to him in any way.

    2:40 p.m. H texts a “hello” emoji. That’s the best he can do! I don’t text back because I’m busy at work and not sure how to move forward with him.

    3 p.m. My sister comes into work (she’s a stay-at-home mom) to say “hi” to everyone and hear more details about my vacation. I tell her I’m on the fence about this guy. She says I need to give it more time, that he sounds nice and stable and guys like that are impossible to come by. She’s older and wiser so I listen. This leads me to text H “Hello back!”

    7 p.m. My roommates and I order sushi, drink wine, and watch Love Island. I’ve known these girls for years, but they both have serious boyfriends and it feels as though these are our last days of glory together before they get engaged or married and move on.

    9:50 p.m. A little sexy texting with H, but it feels hollow.

    DAY SIX

    8:30 a.m. My dad and I have a breakfast meeting with clients today, so I’m already in midtown at a restaurant looking professional.

    10:30 a.m. I love my dad so much, and as we take the subway to the office together, I can’t help but think that H is not high quality like my dad and simply too bland. I don’t share these thoughts with my dad.

    3:30 p.m. H texts about my weekend plans as today is Friday. I have a pit in my stomach. I need to break up with him. I tell him that we should get lunch tomorrow. I wonder if my text screams “I’m going to break up with you.”

    7:45 p.m. Another night of Love Island with one of my roommates. She asks if I want help figuring out what to say tomorrow, but honestly I just want to watch the show, go to sleep, and try to stay calm about it all.

    DAY SEVEN

    8 a.m. I feel like throwing up. I’m about to dump someone who might be great and then I’m going to be single again, which is the worst. But I have to listen to my heart here: He’s not for me.

    10 a.m. Take a long walk around the neighborhood just to figure out my words for later.

    12:40 p.m I’m early to meet H, of course, but that allows me to sit at the table and order a drink so I loosen up.

    1 p.m. The look on his face says he knows what’s coming. So I get right into it. I tell him that something about our relationship makes me anxious and it’s not his fault. I tell him that I found myself craving more closeness, but I’m not sure he can go there with me. He defends himself a little bit by repeatedly saying it’s been only a few months and that I haven’t been overly communicative either. But he doesn’t fight for me, really.

    2 p.m. We never end up ordering food. Just two drinks each, then a weird hug good-bye.

    5 p.m. I’ve been walking around the city for a few hours, digesting the breakup and trying to dig deeper within myself to figure out why I get so anxious with dating and how I’m going to work on it.

    9 p.m. It’s a weird night at home. The roommates aren’t around. I feel somewhat sad about the breakup but relieved, too. I don’t regret ending things — not yet at least.

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  • Kyle Kirkwood Keeps Pressure on by Leading Mid-Ohio Practice

    Kyle Kirkwood Keeps Pressure on by Leading Mid-Ohio Practice

    Don’t tell Kyle Kirkwood that Alex Palou will waltz to his fourth NTT INDYCAR SERIES championship this season.

    Kirkwood, the only driver besides Palou to win a race in 2025, led an eventful opening practice Friday for The Honda Indy 200 at Mid-Ohio Presented by the All-New 2026 Passport with a top lap of 1 minute, 5.8272 seconds in the No. 27 Andretti Global Honda featuring a special Honda tribute livery this weekend.

    SEE: Practice Results

    “We’re really fast right now,” Kirkwood said. “As long as we continue that, we’ll be in a really good spot. We’ve come here this year with maybe a different philosophy, and it seems to be working out.”

    Reigning Mid-Ohio winner Pato O’Ward was second at 1:06.0160 in the No. 5 Arrow McLaren Chevrolet. All teams are benefiting from this event being the first anniversary of the INDYCAR hybrid system as, for the first time on a road and street circuit, teams can return to their car setup notes from 2024.

    Palou still lurks near the top as he seeks his seventh victory this season, ending up third at 1:06.0409 in the No. 10 Open AI Chip Ganassi Racing Honda. Kirkwood has won three races in 2025 and is second in the championship, 93 points behind Palou.

    Two-time Mid-Ohio winner Josef Newgarden made a good start by ending up fourth at 1:06.1791 in the No. 2 PPG Team Penske Chevrolet. Two-time Indianapolis 500 presented by Gainbridge winner Newgarden is a disappointing 17th in the season standings and is looking to jump-start the second half of his season this weekend.

    Another driver looking to salvage his season, Marcus Ericsson, rounded out the top five at 1:06.2324 in the No. 28 FOX INDYCAR Honda of Andretti Global. 2022 Indianapolis 500 winner Ericsson is 21st in points.

    The tricky, roller-coaster nature of Mid-Ohio caught out a handful of drivers in the 80-minute session, which was split into two groups.

    David Malukas backed into the tire wall hard in Turn 9 in his No. 4 Clarience Technologies Chevrolet of A.J. Foyt Enterprises, while Colton Herta backed his No. 26 Gainbridge Honda into the tire barrier in Turn 6. The Andretti Global with Curb-Agajanian crew was able to fix Herta’s machine so he could return to the track. Neither driver was hurt.

    2022 Mid-Ohio winner Scott McLaughlin spun into the gravel in his No. 3 Odyssey Battery Team Penske Chevrolet and continued. Felix Rosenqvist was forced to stop on track due to a mechanical problem in his No. 60 SiriusXM Honda of Meyer Shank Racing w/Curb-Agajanian, adorned with a special livery saluting hard rock icon Ozzy Osbourne and his band Black Sabbath.

    Up next is pre-qualifying practice at 10:30 a.m. ET Saturday, followed by NTT P1 Award qualifying at 2:30 p.m. (both sessions FS1, FOX Sports app, INDYCAR Radio Network). The 90-lap race starts at 1 p.m. ET Sunday on FOX, the FOX Sports app and the INDYCAR Radio Network.


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  • Germany open their EURO 2025 account with a win, despite losing tearful captain Giulia Gwinn to injury woes

    Germany open their EURO 2025 account with a win, despite losing tearful captain Giulia Gwinn to injury woes

    Gwinn’s injury dampens winning night for Germany

    Just days ago, Gwinn spoke of the pride at leading her team into a major tournament wearing the captain’s armband.

    “It’s a great honour for me [and] it makes me really proud,” she told DW.

    “Going into a tournament like this is special. I’m feeling very motivated and looking forward to finally getting out onto the pitch.”

    But in a cruel twist of fate, the full-back was helped off the pitch following what seems to be a serious injury sustained while making a goal-saving block.

    Germany’s skipper put her body on the line to prevent Ewa Pajor from getting a clear shot on goal, hurting herself in the process.

    Despite admiral attempts to continue, she was helped off the pitch by physios before the interval.

    Not only is she a huge loss of ability on the field for the European giants, her leadership skills will be sorely missed at the back.

    The extent of this injury is unknown at this point, though it is particularly brutal for Gwinn, who has missed out on major tournaments previously after sustaining two Anterior Cruciate Ligament (ACL) injuries in her career before.

    Fans and teammates alike will be tentatively waiting for updates in the coming days, but such an emotional reaction from the Bayern Munich star could signal the end of her campaign before it has even really started.

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  • Senior official urges boosting sci-tech, industrial innovation toward high-quality development

    Senior official urges boosting sci-tech, industrial innovation toward high-quality development

    HEFEI, July 4 — Senior Chinese official Wang Xiaohong has urged efforts to adhere to the new development philosophy, effectively boost sci-tech and industrial innovation, and achieve new results in the country’s high-quality development.

    Wang, a member of the Secretariat of the Communist Party of China Central Committee and state councilor, made the remarks during an investigation and research tour in east China’s Anhui Province between Thursday and Friday.

    During the tour, Wang urged efforts to transform and upgrade traditional industries while fostering and expanding emerging industries, and continuously enhance the capability of original innovation.

    He also stressed the need to actively develop the low-altitude economy on a safe and secure basis, devise more beneficial policies for the people and enterprises, and ensure law enforcement is carried out in a strict, procedure-based, impartial, and civilized manner.

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  • Portuguese players at Wimbledon pay tribute to Diogo Jota

    Portuguese players at Wimbledon pay tribute to Diogo Jota

    LONDON (AP) — Nuno Borges had hoped to wear a Diogo Jota soccer jersey onto the court for his match at Wimbledon on Friday, but he settled for a black ribbon on his hat instead.

    The All England Club has a strict all-white dress code for players while on court, but permission to wear the ribbon was granted after Jota and his brother were killed in a car crash in Spain.

    Family and friends of the Liverpool forward and his brother gathered at a chapel where their bodies were brought for a wake on Friday, a day after the fatal crash.

    Borges, who at No. 37 is Portugal’s highest-ranked tennis player, told the PA news agency that his agent contacted Wimbledon about the idea of wearing Jota’s national team jersey as a tribute, but it wasn’t approved. Tournament officials did not immediately comment late Friday.

    Borgest lost his third-round match to Karen Khachanov in five sets.

    Francisco Cabral wore a black ribbon on his left sleeve during a doubles match.

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    AP tennis: https://apnews.com/hub/tennis


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